My Secret

My secret.  I’m about to share with you a secret I held close to me and how I finally couldn’t handle the secret anymore.  And the straight up truth about how Fill My Holistic Practice came to be.

The secret was something I didn’t really recognize at first.  And then I didn’t want to admit it.

I was practicing as a pharmacist and enjoyed working on Native American reservations.  A few years into it, the excitement of traveling and getting to know different Native American cultures started to wear off.  I started noticing myself feeling really dissatisfied.  At first, I couldn’t really pinpoint why.  The more I looked in, I realized that I was angry that I had to look at patients in the eye and tell them to take a few pain medications a day to make their pain go away.  Or to take depression medications so they would feel better.  I hated it because I didn’t really believe it and had to detach myself in those moments to say what I was trained to say.

To hear more about my story, including how a pharmacist who is anti-drugs got into pharmacy in the first place, click here (I share it in the first part of the teleseminar).

I realized that something needed to change.

At the time, I was working at a pharmacy where many pharmacists were government employees counting down towards their retirement.  It was frustrating to me that they didn’t see the possibility of finding something that was more fulfilling for them.  Because of where I was feeling myself with practicing pharmacy and seeing how others around me were, I ended up helping pharmacists find jobs that were more satisfying for them.

I grew a pharmacist recruiting business for several years and felt like I was making a greater contribution (I still see the need for using medications in acute situations).  Then I kept getting hit with signs.   It started out with signs pointing me in the direction of following a deeper passion of mine.  It happened at a mastermind retreat where the business plan I had so logically laid out and presented earlier in the day got busted in the evening when I was sitting around chatting with a few entrepreneurs.  I was so stubborn earlier in the day about how my plan was going to work, when my brilliant mentors that weekend, Jim Palmer, Martin Howey, and Melanie Benson Strick picked it apart.  I am normally not resistant to coaching, but for some reason, I was so stubborn to my idea.

That evening when chatting to my entrepreneur friends and reflecting on why I was so stubborn earlier, the truth came out.  I didn’t really want to be doing my well-thought out plan.  My friends pushed me to that realization in a safe place.  That realization was such a relief and I started to imagine the possibility that I didn’t have to keep putting off my deeper passion until I grew my pharmacist recruiting to a certain level.

I allowed the idea to sit with me and start dreaming about it.  This went on for the rest of the year.  Then I started to get hit by bigger signs which were more dramatic.  Things started falling apart in different areas of my life with no apparent reason.  It was as if nothing was working right, and I kept getting hit with what most people would consider bad news.

This happened for several months.  One day at a holistic health fair, I picked a card out of Doreen Virtue’s Life Purpose oracle deck of cards and couldn’t believe what it said.  If I remembered the exact words, I would share it with you, but in a nutshell it was as if the universe was speaking to me again: “Follow your calling.”  (I had experienced several signs about following my calling in the previous few days).  In that moment, I resigned to the fact that I wasn’t going to wait around for a 2 x 4 sign and decided to make the commitment to step fully into what I believe in.

Fill My Holistic Practice is the first stage of manifesting my calling.  It’s something that is dear to my heart–I can see the world being a better place when we change the way the planet looks at illness, health, the environment, and ourselves.  As a part of my community, you are on a journey with me to the evolution of how my calling and be a part of my gifts serving you.  Look forward to getting to know you.  May you follow your passion and be led to the next step of your truth.

Did you ever go through turmoil to get to where you are today in your holistic health business?  Comment below and share your stories.  It can be inspiring to others!


  1. Cheryl Steins on September 8, 2012 at 4:05 pm

    Great article Chen, thank you for sharing your story. At this point in my life my kids are all grown now and I am left with figuring out what to do with myself. I am a massage therapist and have been that for 7 years though not working much. I can work out of my home now and work with my daughter who is also a massage therapist. We are in the middle of transforming a room into a spa room. Problem is, I don’t find that I am all that excited about doing massage anymore. The business end I don’t mind (I sent you an email about the marketing side of that) but being an LMT may not be for me anymore. I am happy for you that you were able to find your true calling. Now if I could only find mine. Thank you for telling about your challenges and having the courage to go your true course. It gives me hope that I will find my true calling one day.

  2. Maryann D on September 4, 2012 at 5:10 pm

    Hello Chen, Thank You for sharing, you are an inspiration. I too worked in the medical field as a Home Health Aide/Nurses Assistant and did not agree with the pushing of pain meds and also treating the symptoms and helping with teaching people how to stay healthy with nutrition or alternative/holistic medicine. I worked in the medical field for 10 plus years while getting a divorce, being in a fierce child custody battle, raising my youngest daughter, who is now 19, plus, trying to figure out my own physical dis ease-IBS. There always seems to be a challenge, but, I always got up and over it and moved on.
    I recently decided to follow my calling and just graduated from Massage Therapy school. I am loving it, but, need help starting a business and getting work, by the way, do Indian Reservations hire massage Therapists? I would love to spend time on a reservation and travel like you said that you did. I also need help with marketing and work of mouth sales. Thank You again Chen for putting yourself out there to teach people like me to excel.


    • Chen Yen on September 8, 2012 at 1:54 pm

      Hi Marynn, thank you for sharing your story. Love that you’ve recently decided to follow your calling. Isn’t it such a different energy to be in? 🙂

      To answer your question, Indian reservations don’t usually hire massage therapists, although some Indian hospitals have acupuncturists.

      Good to see you invest the time to learn about starting a business early on…you are ahead of other holistic practitioners who choose to figure it out on their own or only through free things (nothing wrong with that, but there’s only so much you can learn from free things. Look for a successful mentor whom you resonate with and invest in yourself to learn their whole step-by-step system–let them show you the path so you don’t have to struggle), vs. not bringing in consistent business and having to consider working another job at the same time or give up your dream. Look forward to you being a part of my community.

  3. Sandra Yadira on August 15, 2012 at 6:07 am

    Thank you for sharing, Chen, what a great awakening! I cannot count the number of times I have “closed the doors” to my holistic practice due to lack of financial success. Most of the time it seems as though I am running a nonprofit organization minus the contributions. But my calling keeps pulling me back…hard! So I’ve decided I need help. I need to change the way I am doing things and need professional guidance for this to take place. I don’t have a business partner to rely heavily on my network. I am counting on you….
    Thank you!

    • Chen Yen on August 23, 2012 at 1:21 am

      Sandra, good for you for keeping the doors open to your holistic practice even when times are tough. And for being courageous to openly put it out there that you need help. It’s time for you to not only serve your clients but to also get the financial success you deserve.

      Personally, I’ve always had mentors who’ve influenced me and am always investing in training & getting help from those who know how to help me get where I want to go.

      Since it sounds like you are ready, I invite you to apply for a strategy session as a next step to explore what to get help with in your business that will get you to the place of having both– living your calling and experiencing financial success: Look forward to being a part of you getting your work out in a bigger way!

  4. Valerie on August 12, 2012 at 3:36 pm

    Hello Chen, This is a beautiful post and it feels so gentle, deep and real. I am in your Mastermind group with Lisa Sasevich and admire your input quite a bit although we have never actually met. I’m at the verge of opening up to my calling and would love a helping hand in smoothing out the rough spots. I have a deep knowing of my work, I just haven’t gotten the words down correctly. After my girl is tucked into her college dorm next week, I’m confident I’ll have more time to focus. I’ll miss the retreat next week in SD but would like to connect with you afterward. Let me know when you are available. Many blessing for your continued growth and success. Thank you for your authentic service. Valerie

    • Chen Yen on August 23, 2012 at 1:11 am

      Valerie, love what you’ve shared with me about your work. Look forward to seeing if and how I can help you step fully into your calling.

  5. Jim Palmer - The Newsletter Guru on August 11, 2012 at 10:57 am

    Chen, what a great article and story of perseverance and being open to the advice and wisdom of other entrepreneurs. I’m excited for what’s happening in your life and look forward to hearing about all of your future success! Blessings, Jim

    • Chen Yen on August 23, 2012 at 1:08 am

      Thank you, Jim. I appreciate your role in my turning point!

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